2nd - #Haiku

If only she could,
Heading towards dawn to dusk
She won’t scream for help

#Haiku #575

1st - #Haiku

Today she promise To look after her heart first Whatever it takes

#Haiku #575

Endless pray

I just want you to know, God
That my plans were perfect
I calculated it
I divided it into this and that.
It was perfect.
But I only made it into one.
One thing will lead to another, I thought
But, life doesn't really work that way, does it?
I make a big A plan, without even bother to create another plan B
When it turned me down, it felt like a thousand bricks hit me at the same time.
It was perfect God, let me tell you once again.

But, it sets me to see things clearly
That my plan wasn't perfect enough
It's all me, it's all my greediness, it's all my selfishness,
I know it too well, that yours are better.
Yours will be beautiful
Yours will be eternity
Don't let me hope less, God.
I'm a believer, I believe in You.
Not because my parents believe in you,
I've seen how You shaped me for the past 24 years,
and You still do,
and You never ever leave my side.
I want You to do things like You did to me once again.
This time, it's not all about me, You perfectly know that.

I beg You.

Ki(n)d

I still remember how I dealt with matters, in the past. 
I am a chicken one. I can not deal with problems, I used to hide and let the others took care, or I'll just silent till everyone could accept for the way I am again. 
I still remember about being vocal, showing off to make others feel uneasy
But then when people wanted to repair the relationship, I bailed.
The old me, was never ever said sorry unless to my parents, cause I won't even care
I am a chicken, back then. 
Gladly that I change bit by bit. 
To say sorry is always easy for me, as well as forgiving. 
To me now, being kind is the most important thing,
whether society dislike it or not, let the universe decide for me.
I got nothing to lose. I feel like I got nothing to lose.
I decide to learn, to be able to have a lot of mercy. 
Though still, it will hurt me, it will leave a small scar, even my heart sometimes skip a beat, when people hurt you in a way you will never imagine. 
I get it now, that's what people do and did in order to survive. 
And I won't judge, but I still need time to understand tho. 
As for me, I will continue to spread my smile, my kindness. 
The kinder, or better you are as a person, the more people will want to misunderstand you or hurt you in some way. That's also okay. 
At the end of the day, I have so much win anyway. 

Just don't test me

You try to keep your emotion in check

sometimes, you clench your fist tight.

Because you know when you act up, it will get ugly

and many physical contact will involve

it will be unbearable, inconsolable for them

so, you put countless effort to ignore

But, they keep pressing you

don't blame her in the forthcoming

Greed

I got greedy all over again,
I demand to see you in every time today
The needs of making coincidences is really this high
Because,
for the next days I won't be able to see you
even to see a glimpse, a backside of your back
I can't even see you from the very far
I would like to take you for granted then
Just for today,
Yes, I am that greedy now

Speaking about greed,
At the very least, I have to be honest about my greed
I learn my lesson well.

Very Nice

You are way too nice,
until sometimes (often)
people took (an) advantage (s) of you

You get that a lot,
You are tired to hear any of it
(by the one that took the advantages)