The Ballads of Network-Internet-Cable

So here's the thing.

I should really be aware of this kind of thing last year, or even 2 or 3 years ago. 2 years ago, I was bragging that cable took over network TV that easy. Then, a year ago and up until now, Netflix and Amazon never cease to amaze us with their innovations. 

After I saw the announcement of Golden Globe Awards last week, it got me thinking too loud. What about Emmys then? 

This year, Mozart in The Jungle took over the best comedy series and Mr. Robot got the best drama series. Both came from internet based show and cable. I know GGA is always having kind of anomaly for TV category, but still. GGA always be the benchmark for the upcoming Emmys. Then, what's left for network TV then?

I remember perfectly clear at year of 06 when The Office won easily over Curb Your Enthusiasm and 24 got so much recognition instead of The Sopranos. I mean, TV was a real deal back then. Take a look at 24, the very best interpretation of drama series with a very great concept. Nothing can beat the idea of making tv show like 24 did. 

ER, SNL, and Cheers still hold the most nominations on Primetime Emmy Awards. It's not because of, there's no cable and Netflix back then. For me it's about sincerity you put inside the show. In retrospect thought, ER was just a medical tv show where the story is all about patient who came around ER with their diseases and the talented doctors came to rescue them, that's it. The very good news is, ER have 194 noms in total, just because of that simple story.  

I don't hate Netflix or Cable show. I'm proudly to say that I'm a House of Cards biggest fans and Homeland's freak. I love them both equally. Back then, people move to cable, cause cable gave us the better story, real story, honest story cause practically they don't care about the ratings and the censorship. You could actually found a very naked men at HBO show. As time goes by, Netflix and later Amazon hacked into our life with bunch of vulgar content which the audiences loves too much. I'm not saying about nudity or nakedness and un-awkward sex in this part, I mean, internet based tv show us the very good story about american undercover side like LGBT theme or something taboo, into a very great tv show. Which we found more interesting and refreshing.

The thing is, network tv show are always up for ratings, viewers, censorship and millions other things. Through the many boundaries, network tv couldn't present the audiences what they really want. CBS for example. CBS know too much that Americans love to see crime based, procedural, court drama, and action show. So, in order to fulfill that market's needs, they tend to produce show like CSI, then make it CSI into 3 different franchise, as we know they did to NCIS too. Then they create bunch of procedural/police/crime drama all over again. Yeah, the ratings are very very very good. NCIS and NCIS: LA are always position themselves in number 2 or 3 (of course NBC still own the Sunday Night Football as the number 1 rating in USA) in top tv ratings. I mean, seriously, this show never got recognition for Emmy and other awards, yet they're still great at ratings. 

Meanwhile, NBC, a very compassionate network who work really hard to create some different stories for tv show, got nothing on ratings since FRIENDS ended up their show in 2004. Also at that year, ER dropped its rating because season 10 was really transitioning for ER. NBC always produce the very best tv show. We can take a look back at Frasier, Cheers, 30 Rock, The Office and  how they took so many awards because of it. They are a very award-ish shows but sadly, they got no numbers on ratings. They always ended up canceled by the network. How sad. I just can not imagine, how NBC will ever survive with ratings? One good thing about NBC is they tried so hard to keep producing a good quality comedy and drama. And it's not procedural. It is so obvious that NBC is really trying to get audiences's heart again just like 80s and 90s. Great ratings and also great quality because back then their show were always picked up for the awards thingy. 

And now, with the advent of cable and internet, what's left for network TV? what's left for NBC? Why bother to do Emmy on the CBS, NBC, ABC, and Fox if there's no noms from network tv in the future? 

I like too see more show like 30 Rock got pick up by NBC, it's not about the ratings, it's the quality. We've seen how NBC took a large amount of Emmys because of their quality not the ratings. Again, we should learn something from Netflix and cable, they did 13 to 15 episodes even maybe 6 episodes with total greatness on each episodes not the 20-24 episodes with the ballads of "highest rating" competition. Again, that was why they took home many awards nowadays. 

The Emmys itself should also give us the basic interpretation for tv show again. I mean, the world is changing. Why do we say Emmys is an award for recognizing work on tv while we are not watching television anymore. Isn't it a little bit weird? If so, then there will be no noms left for network tv to meets Emmys standard then.  Because now, we can compare network and internet or cable show. Network has its own limitation aside from finding a large viewers.

Moreover, I don't care about the how much award they got, I really like to see a seriousness on network tv show to gain our trust into them again. Us, used to spend a lot on Seinfeld, and now we move on to Veep cause Julia Louis Dreyfuss is much better and rude-r, and realistic AF as VP there. 

That's it.

I don't really know why am I talking about this tonight.

I guess I'm too concern.

Goodluck, Network.

See you on the next award to fight for Oustanding Drama Series. 

My own version of throwback to 2015

2015 was, me doing kind of these things.

- Had an opportunity to challenge myself through Thesis. Yes, it was a bit hard to did the Thesis without any guidance from your seniors, cause I got none. It was challenging to find certain topic that suits you well so that you're going to love your Thesis. Also. it was a bit tricky to playing hard to get with your advisor. At the end of the day, she was the one who being real nice to my Thesis. Without her help, I might never got what I wanted. I'll be thankful toward her everyday if I can.

Let me tell you a little bit about my advisor, it was kinda funny. Last year, she taught me Visual Design Communication 3. The moment she entered my class, and being real fussy to all of us, I whispered to one of my friend who sat next to me : 

"I want her to be my advisor, what do you think?". 

She said "Don't you think she's a little bit, ehm you know...." 

"Captious?" I finished her sentence, she nodded. 

"Yeah I know, I might need that. Just like what Mba Vahsti did to me, turns out she's not even make a comment about my project at all back then. She trusted me. I need to be captious tho, you know"

"Ah, whatever"

Then, 5 months later, all of sudden, I didn't even ask Thesis Department to help me find the best Thesis Advisor they got. I just got her. What a fate. 

 

- Being closer to research somehow. One of my lecturer who's in charge in Research and Community Service (later my boss) called me on January, offering me a position as Research Assistant at ASEAN PR Studies Centre owned by LSPR. I was a little bit shock back then. But I remember, a year ago Miss Fiona said to me that I had to get a little closer with research if I'm really serious about getting myself into academic world. At that time, I was in the middle of some confusion cause I still got 3 classes and yet I needed to do internship as part of my credits. 

Without hesitation, I took the job. It was total fun, it is so fun even until today. Every month we had monthly event, I got close to the other staff there. CK, Khina, and Koko, later Kak Phele, are the best colleagues you could ever ask for. May 2015, my great and kind boss, once again offered me a permanent position. I got my first ever real job this year. How fortunate. 

- I decided to participate LSPR's Got Talent audition. 2015 was my final year here. And I felt a little bit guilty. I'm not going to discharging myself without a little piece of contribution. Long story short, I became one of the finalists in singing category. After 2 months of participating in so called boot camp, here comes the grand final. October 15th, just 4 days before my Thesis Defense, I got 2nd Runner Up from this competition. I don't do bullshit but really, it was never cross my mind that I'll ever win this.

- After I created my own drama with my Thesis, I pronounced graduated at October 19th 2015. The defense was amazing, though It was a little bit awkward to be on trial with 80 years old professor of communication. But, I did that after all. 

- September 2015, one of my dream to be a Lecturer Assistant finally came true. I even got 2 classes. One, is something that related to my major, Advertising. It's Commercial Publishing subject. The other one, is Statistics. Weird, I know. But I do always enjoy myself around maths. 

- BG Award Finalist, Citra Pariwara. All thanks to Wafi, my mate and my partner. I think I'll get a lot of cursed from all of my friends at Advertising UI 2010, cause they know too well that I'm not into award thingy. I even made some jokes for those who got real ambition into advertising award. Again, I would like to do something at least before I graduated. It was a really great opportunity tho. I finally got a chance to met Mbak Reddia again. And to be able to gathered around with advertising people and practitioners is a big gift for me. Guess I missed advertising world real bad. 

- Graduation Ceremony at December 3rd. As usual, my friends from Advertising UI were there even on the weekday. Thankful. I met all of people that I would like to meet. Of course my boss. I even arranged my boss to my parents. I met my office mates, Pak Ari, Mam Hera, my advisor Mam Dina, and even Mam Detty. Of course I took a lot of pictures with them. What a blast moment. 

For me, 2015 is a bit tricky. 80 percents are made from happiness. The other 20 percents just some bad luck. I guess, life doesn't always have to be perfect, right? So is human and people. This year was a very amazing year for my life. 

One thing that I still longing about is, to let things go. I haven't got that big heart to do that. Or I'm just too scared. 2015 not always that happy. There was certain moment when I cried like crazy over a thing that I can't be explained from 2007. There was a time when I screamed "It hurts" too many times. Moreover, I thought about loneliness constantly cause nobody, nobody seems to understand this kind of situation I've been dealing with. I don't blame them, never. It was on me.
But, that is what makes my life in 2015 perfect. Because, when I had time to think down, God gave me all this moment above. A moments to be thankful for. 

I think, I will not set my bar and standard as well as bull crap resolutions for 2016 (except for diet thingy hehe). I know it too well that beautiful 2015, happened because I didn't expect anything from the very beginning. I should have done that from the past time though. But, it'll go better. 2016 will do better, I have a strong faith in it. 

Happy New Year!

1/365

Sleep, Dream, and Waking Up

Sleep it off, they said
Because everything is going to be normal again once you wake up

Then I closed my eyes,
Images flashed around my mind
It was you. Again.
Somewhere, someplace where we finally conquered the world

Now I'm confused
Should I shut my eyes still,
perhaps forever?
or wake up and face the reality?

I can't stay conscious
My mind will always show your face.

It's a myth.

I don't want to sleep again,
because you always popped up in my dreams.

Was, Were

"I'm not even so sure, but
I even went to your favorite place,
hoping that you were not there

Cause I don't even know
how to act
when you're actually here and there"

Malam Malam Lenje

Hari ini aku tidak kudapatkanmu,
nyata sudah ketakutanku.

Akulah orang yang paling menyadari saat ini,
kau tidak perlu berkata, aku sudah paham.
Namun aku risau,
aku tidak ingin tangis itu jatuh lagi,
aku ingin kau bertumpu,
berbaring, dan terlepas.
Tenang, ada aku kok.
Jika kau hilang tonggak,
aku batumu.

Membingkas aku dari delusi.
Menyaksikan keganjalan.
Kulihat sesosok,
Itu kau!
Bukan kau,
bukan kau.
Putus asa.

Aku jera,
mendambakanmu bukanlah hal yg sederhana,
habis waktuku untuk mengitar dan merayau.
Tapi, ku ulangi terus.
Walau lelah ketempat yg lebih tinggi,
mendaki demi sebuah figur.
Kukeruk semuanya,
demi seberkas asa.

Lucunya,
Kau bahkan tidak akan pernah merasa,
karena semuanya kubuat dengan jarak.

Mata bertemu mata, aku tersenyum seperti biasa.
Topeng kupakaikan,
kusembunyikan lelahnya eskpedisi ini,
seolah kita bertemu karena takdir.
Lalu, kau akan merangkulku lagi,
tanpa tahu leburnya hati ini
jika kau melakukannya.

All About You

My life is pretty bored, in other to make some colors in it, I choose TVs and Movies to be the crayon. Lately, this past year actually, I've been caught up with AFI list. You know, AFI has its way to make a listing, 100 of them. From "all the time" category into more specific categories such us "laugh", "cheer", "passions" etc. Let me ask, do you know what movie that got the first position in the AFI chart? 

No! It's not Avengers. Gosh.

It's Citizen Kane. Released in 1941.

I wasn't even born yet. Worst, even my country hasn't even got its independency. 

Anyway, watching TV and Movie is always a real pleasure for me. Don't get me start on how much TV series that I've been watched, about my personal favorite movies, etc. If you have forever, that I'll do it.  

This month I found a really great TV show from Netflix called Frankie and Grace.

Fuck, that was good. Real good. This is basically comedy, but a comedy who can also turn your emotion upside down, just like Parks and Recreation, in a romantic and frantic way. 

Then, cause of Grace and Frankie which played by the amazing Jane Fonda and Lily Tomlin, I traced back her movies one by one. Until I realized, I forget how long I left my AFI movies collection. Then I found a good one from that "passions" list. Titled, On Golden Pond. 1981. Played by young Jane Fonda, her old man Henry Fonda and the great Katherine Hepburn. This was the last movie played by Henry and he's got the Academy Awards for his very last role. 

The point is, I love how this classic movies works. The scoring, the minimalist frame, the accent actors/actresses, the limitation even make things more beautiful. 

Oh thank God, I'm that lucky to realize that this movies are just priceless. 

Wait, till I talk about Meryl and Diane in other post. Nah, you'll be tired of listening me adoring and worshiping her. 

Okay, next I will watch Lawrence of Arabia, 1962, number 7 from AFI's Greatest American Films of All Time. Do you want to join?

Rendezvous (5 Seconds)

bahagia

seolah tidak tahu apa yang akan terjadi di masa datang
harapan baru bermunculan
setiap kali kau melintas

lagi lagi,
kita tidak butuh 2 jam untuk berfantasi bersama
tidak perlu ungkapan secara implisit.
aku begitu mengenalimu
gesturmu
kelembutan tanganmu saat mendekapku lebih dekat
senyuman bulan sabit mu

aku hanya butuh 5 detik untuk menikmati semuanya

aku pernah sekali mendengar,
kau berkata kepada yang lain,
setelah pertemuan 5 detik itu,
bahwa,
akulah yang kau banggakan.

seseorang menyampaikan padaku juga
katanya,
kau mengindahkanku,
kau memujiku dan memujaku
setelah pertemuan 5 detik itu.

lebih baik seperti ini,
walaupun selalu singkat
aku sungguh lebih ingin tahu dengan cara demikian,
dibanding kau menyampaikannya secara langsung.
nanti, aku jadi berharap lebih
nanti, aku meninggi
dari 5 detik menjadi 1 menit
tak kubiarkan diri ini terbang lebih jauh.