I still remember how I dealt with matters, in the past.
I am a chicken one. I can not deal with problems, I used to hide and let the others took care, or I'll just silent till everyone could accept for the way I am again.
I still remember about being vocal, showing off to make others feel uneasy
But then when people wanted to repair the relationship, I bailed.
The old me, was never ever said sorry unless to my parents, cause I won't even care
I am a chicken, back then.
Gladly that I change bit by bit.
To say sorry is always easy for me, as well as forgiving.
To me now, being kind is the most important thing,
whether society dislike it or not, let the universe decide for me.
I got nothing to lose. I feel like I got nothing to lose.
I decide to learn, to be able to have a lot of mercy.
Though still, it will hurt me, it will leave a small scar, even my heart sometimes skip a beat, when people hurt you in a way you will never imagine.
I get it now, that's what people do and did in order to survive.
And I won't judge, but I still need time to understand tho.
As for me, I will continue to spread my smile, my kindness.
The kinder, or better you are as a person, the more people will want to misunderstand you or hurt you in some way. That's also okay.
At the end of the day, I have so much win anyway.
